As I did a year end slide show of photos for the kids, I was reminded that for the first three months we were understaffed by two aides. So basically there was a brand new teacher to GJ and me for three months with 6 kids - one who gets physically violent. It was so much stress and it was during this time that the arthritis began to kick in.
In November we hired two full time permanent aides that actually stuck with the job and that helped. But also in November was Jessica's first surgery and I certainly didn't know what was going on with me, but I knew I could not turn handles any more. I couldn't grasp anything, I could barely tie my shoes because my fingers were so swollen. My doctor kept ordering tests and we kept trying things like cutting out sodium, but nothing was helping.
In December on the family trip I was in horrible pain, but also taking about twenty motrin a day which helped control it. Finally in February I got in to the rheumatologist in Delta and immediate relief came. I am on Prednisone and was started at 20mg. I went down to 15 mg about 4 or 5 weeks ago and at that time I started experiencing pain in my right heel. The pain has gotten worse and I was thinking if I can just get through school. Well I thought my appointment was this week, but it's not until next week so I called yesterday. They told me to go back up to 20mg. I did today and can sense some relief already although I am a little worried about being on Prednisone.
This week is JUCO and we love going to watch. But it wasn't allowing me to get anything caught up at home as every room in the house needs detailed attention. Today I have been home all day and am making great headway on the office and I am feeling good. Tonight we have fellowship so I still need to get three other rooms ready within a few hours.
With the school job being from 7 to 3:, and running kids to activities every night (just one kid, one sport), fellowship two times a week with 18 people's needs to take care of, and a full time business I felt like I was dying. I don't ever want to feel that way again. If I have to say No to everything including the fellowship just to get to the point where I read the Bible every day again, I will. I'm done killing myself on others behalf.
I think the only possible person who can read this is Laura and I am okay with Laura reading it. I think I have changed the privacy policies and Laura is the only one with access. I hope I'm right. I need a place to write and this is going to be it.
Well I must continue on. We go away in a week and a half, so must get the best use of my time now.
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